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Friday, September 4, 2009

Dissociation

New year: Time for new beginnings, new resolutions etc…Last two months have been life changing for me. From a guy who use to run from girls, i had fallen in love and I was being helped by my friends , boys as well as girls. Yes Girls!! Due to arhenika, i have got such good friends among girls as well.

But this new year didn’t started auspiciously for me.

“Arhan , if you behave like this I will tell arhenika about your feelings”, Hritika said in anger. We have had a fight and she was blackmailing me.

“Tell her, I am not scared of you or her” I bursted out and went to home.

Next day in the school , 3 of our teachers were on leave

“All periods today will be taken by me” Sharma sir, our mathematics teacher announced.

“What in the world, No” I was already sad and this was the last thing that I needed. I love mathematics but I don’t know why I was very frustrated, probably due to fight with hritika.

I had brought chocolates today so as to pacify hrithka and also to give them to arhenika. But arhenika was not there in the class in the break, probably had gone somewhere. Since morning only I was having a bad feeling and I desperately wanted to talk to her so as to make sure everything is alright. Sandy had brought some beautiful bookmarks and we were having a look at them when arhenika entered along with Anjali.

“What are you guys looking at”, Anjali asked with a puzzled look.

“Oh its some bookmarks, have a look “, I said and walked towards them.

As I went towards them , arhenika walked across towards the otherside of the class not even looking at me. I was shocked to say the least and the feeling that I was having became even stronger.

“Don’t worry Arhan, just let the next period pass and then we have two free periods and then you can talk with Hritika and arhenika”, sandy reassured me.

After the period Sharma sir again came and said that they were taking the next two periods.

“Sir, its enough we already had 3 periods in the morning. Let us go now” I shouted.

“Arhan, what’s wrong? Come and sit on the front bench” Sharma sir replied.

It was getting too much for me now. After some time I thought sir had finished and I went back to my seat when I again heard sir’s voice.

“Where are you moving Arhan, I am yet not finished.”

I lost it at that point and came towards the front bench and bumped the table with the books I was holding and that sound matched the sound of a cracker and sat at the seat silently.

“Ok you people can go now”. Sir said after the incident.

After the school everybody came and asked me what happened and why I am so sad. Even Hritika came and said sorry for the fight we had yesterday .

“Arhan sorry baba, but whats wrong with you , why you behaving like this”

“I don’t want to talk to anyone , just leave me alone”

“Ok but don’t be sad, c you tomorrow bye”

I was fine but the girl I wanted to come,Arhenika, didn’t come to ask about me and that didn’t helped in soothing my anger.

Next day I was ok and back to my normal cheerful mode in the morning and had brought chocolates again. In the break Anjali was sitting with arhenika and they were watching a photo album.i decided to go towards them.

“Hi girls, wanna munch some chocolate”

Again the unthinkable happened, arhenika I thought didn’t hear me and went from there in a irritated and angry manner.

My condition was now like a fish without water and was about to cry when fortunately or unfortunately , the bell rang and neelima madam came. I was again silent the whole period and was continuously thinking what I had done to be treated like this. When school got over I confronted Hritika.

“What have you told her?”

“Me. Nothing at all. Why? What happened?”

“Don’t you see, she is ignoring me, have you told anything about my feelings to her”

“Well I gave her a hint that may be you like her, but you were saying that day na you are not scared and all”

“Girl what have you done, I was angry that day, why you did it, Hell”

“Ok I am sorry even I told her because I was angry on you. But don’t worry she will be alright and we are with you na. so chillax. Go to go now. bye”

It was a long weekend with 3 days off from school and I had decided to goto my maternal place so as to get some relief. But from Monday I had thought that I will confront arhenika directly and ask her what’s wrong because these ignores are hurting me like anything. I cannot take them anymore.

I don’t know how much time I have with her and should spent it with her in a happy mood. Love you Girl.

The Party

It is rightly said that “Desperate times need desperate measures”. That is what I am looking to do by organizing a New Year party for our class.

Almost a month had passed after her birthday and the condition was status quo, with both of us just smiling and giggling at each other and not talking much , so that’s why the idea of organizing a party cropped up.

Sandy had gone ill and was not available, so I shared my secret with another friend of mine Jaspreet aka jassi and he agreed to help me in my plan.

“Apart from the minor formalities the tough task is to persuade the girls to come because arhenika won’t come alone and have to get a group of girls alongside her.” I said.

“Let us call all the girls and in the end you can call arhenika and try to persuade her.” Replied jassi.

Where is luck when you need it the most?

I had just finished calling Hrithika’s house and she said she cannot come as she was going out of station and same was the case with supreet.

Two of the girls I knew well had responded in the negative, so I was disappointed and told jassi to make the other calls.

“Thanks Girl, See you at the party”. Jassi was having better luck than me and he had convinced 3 of our classmates.

Now is the time I had to call arhenika and despite my poor form I insisted that I will talk with her.

As the bell was ringing, so was my heartbeat. What happens to me when I talk with this girl?

“Hi Arhenika”

“Oh Hi Arhan”

“So what plans about the party? I hope you people are coming”.

“Yeah I and Anjali are definitely coming”

“You can bring any of your friends also, if you are willing to do so”

“Oh thanks, we will definitely do that. See you at the party arhan”

“Yeah see you. Bye”

“Bye”

Hangup….

“Yes Yes Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

“Calm down dude save your energy for the evening” Jassi smiled.

I wore a brown jacket with black shirt and denim jeans and reached the party venue and after few minutes she came.

The angel had arrived. Arhenika was wearing a black dress, her favorite color, as well as mine, with her hair open and was looking marvelous. I was dumbstruck looking at her when suddenly the aura was broken by the sweetest voice I could hear at that moment.

“Hi Arhan. You are looking good”

“You are looking fabulous as well”, the only words I could mutter at that time.

She started dancing with Anjali and her friends as I kept watching her. I couldn’t get the courage to go and dance with her and was shying away from her.

“Let’s dance Arhan”, Ravi pulled my hand and led me to the dance floor. I danced a bit but my mind was just not in it. More than an hour had passed and I hadn’t even gone close to her.
Thankfully food arrived at that time and that helped me in calming myself and controlling my frustration.

“Come on Arhan, you have worked so hard to make this party happen and now you are not making use of it”, Jassi pushed me to do something.

The DJ then played the song”My heart will go on” and then I finally got some courage and asked arhenika for a dance which she accepted and then we did a bit of couple dance.

It was like everything around me had ceased to exist and it was just me and her, looking into each other and dancing the time away.

It was the best dance I had ever had in my life.

Now it was time for them to go.

“Let’s have ice cream till Anjali’s brother comes” I suggested.

“Ok but I will pay for it as you are not taking the money for the party”

“No No, I will do that”

“Ok then you eat on your own, I am going”

“Ok ok, calm down, you pay”

My god what anger! It matches the anger that I get when I am hot. Another quality of hers which I had came to know and I was loving it.

“Great party Arhan, you surely have done a wonderful job and would love to have these kind of parties often”

“Thanks, yeah it was some trouble making sure it happened but it is worth it”

“You are a wonderful dancer Arhenika and by seeing you dance I am remembered of Kareena kapoor’s dance on Rabba Rabba in Mujhe kuch kehna hai” I praised her.

“Oh nothing it was ok”, she blushed as her cheeks went red.

“You didn’t danced much, would love to see you dance as well”

Sure Arhenika sure I can dance my whole life with you, I thought in my mind.

We talked a little about some random things and I was so much in awe that I couldn’t speak much, I was experiencing the magic of being with her and wanted to savor each moment.
We talked for around 45 minutes when Anjali’s brother came and they had to go. I was a bit said but still these 45 minutes have been the best of my life.

I couldn’t sleep the whole night and was continuously thinking about the 45 minutes and the couple dance that I had with the girl I love.

Yes it is love and I love arhenika.

As the New Year approaches, I have just one New Year wish that the feelings that I have for her are same on the other side as well. Does she feel the same way that I do? Does she like me as well? Does she love me the way that I love her?

Only New Year will tell………………………….

First ‘Girl Friends’

I am confused, bewildered, not knowing what to do? I have never felt in my life like this before. This girl, I don’t know what she is doing to me? I have to do something, I needed to talk to her but I just couldn’t talk, whenever she is in front of me, my brain cells expire and I am a dumbass.

I had to tell somebody so I talked with sandy about it.

“Bro, don’t tell me you like arhenika”, to say that he was shocked will be an understatement.

Arhenika as I had told earlier was not the typical girl you would have crush on first look or somewhat, she had a sense of seraphicness about her which had just been visible to me and everybody else would have never thought that I , of all people will fell for her.

“I don’t know, I think I do”.

“Ok, no worries see dude you have to talk to her first and knowing you who haven’t talked to a girl unless avoidable it is tough”

Yeah it was, I can do anything under the sun but talking to girls was just not my cup of tea.

“I will introduce to you Hritika; she is a good friend of arhenika and may be something can be pulled off from there”

So Hritika was to be my first friend among girls. Hritika is a girl, ahem, she is kind of tomboy, hangs out with guys more often than girls and shows quite lot of class and attitude, sophistication stuff you know.

Hritika was the first and later on Supreet and Anjali were to join my gang of girl ‘friends’ only person missing was arhenika.
We use to eat together in the lunch time and I just used to smile and look at her.

These girls were trying hard but I was just not able to say anything to her.

I even bought a slam book and no prizes for guessing who the first entry in that was.

“26 November”

“Yes it’s her birthday and what are you planning to do”, Hritika asked.

“Wish her; what else am I supposed to do?”

“Stupid, duffer you will just score good in exams, you don’t use your brains in anything else, do you?”

These were the words that were trademark of Hritika and I was on the receiving end of them most of the times.

“See card is a must and get her a gift, think of something and get it”

After roaming a number of Archie’s galleries, Hallmarks, finally I got a card which I liked and along with that bought a set of 10 cards on which birthday thoughts were written. Safe gift considering that I haven’t even had a full hearted talk with her ever

Finally the D-day arrived.

“It’s already 8, hasn’t she come to school yet”

“Calm down man, there is still 15 minutes to go, she will come just calm down” Sandy reassured me.

The wait was getting nerve wrenching for me, never had I given a gift to a girl and now for the first time I am starting with a girl I have a crush upon.

“Thank god, you are here. Where is the birthday girl?” as I saw Anjali.

“She is not coming today; she had to go to Delhi to attend some function” Anjali shot back.

Anjali was the oldest of our lot, at least she looked and sounded like that, quite mature and calm complete contrast of our teenage like chirping and all and she does not know about my crush on arhenika yet. Only sandy and Hritika are aware of it.

“What? Don’t tell me”

I was broken, this can’t happen to me. First time I have thought of doing something and it has failed like this. I am never gonna do anything for her again. She at least could have told earlier. No No No.

Hritika tried consoling me “ Never mind Aadu (that’s one of my nicknames) she will come back in 2 days time , you can give gifts then”.

But I was not listening, I know the importance of the d-day and I won’t be able to wish the special one in my life on her special day. It was to haunt me till the time I met her after two days.

She did come back after two days and I gave her the card and the gift. It was a pleasant surprise for her as she had not expected a shy , soft spoken guy(this was written by her in my slam book) to gift her with them.

“Why are these for?”

“It’s for your birthday”

“Yeah but why me?”

Why do girls ask so many questions?

“You are a good friend of mine and I just thought it will be nice to give you something on your birthday” I gathered some courage to say that.

“Thanks but I cannot take this gift, I will take the card but not the gift”

I relented and after some pushing by Hritika, supreet and me she finally kept it .

“Bye, see you tomorrow” she smiled and waved as her auto rickshaw sped away.

Tomorrow: what does it beholds, I was unlucky in not wishing her but then lucky enough in giving her what I have got for her. I hope tomorrow brings a new color of happiness in my life………

20th Oct

20 Oct
Parent Teacher Meeting

“Mom, its going to be a bit of timepass, come on” .

“ok ok , I will go with you”. So PTM here I come.

I was cribbing about the PTM but it is a nice feeling , a sense of proud and achievement when you are bringing your parents to meet the teachers , mind it i.e only when you are first in class, not when you screw up the papers.

“Good morning Madam” I said in the most humble and sincere way one can imagine and introduced her to mom. She greeted me and mom and started telling about my marks and all and then mom asked her the question I dreaded the most “Howz arhan in the class, Does he talk a lot or not???”

No No No, I m dead now, neelima is going to spill all the beans now as I closed my eyes and looked for a place to hide.

“No Mrs arora, he is very silent and sweet and is not at all any trouble in the class and now to he is the monitor of the class”.

Before I could believe my ears and pinch myself, a sound came , a melodius sound , a sound with lot of grit and confidence in it.

[B]“Aunty itni to baatein karta hai aur har waqt bas bolta hee rehta hai”.[/B]

Who is this? Such guts to complain about me and that too to my mom.

It was the most unexpected person I had ever imagined, ARHENIKA .

No way, Nah can’t be she, she never talks with any boy , leave aside talking with boys she is even very shy with girls and she is talking like this in front of my mom and even her mom as I had heard that she is very afraid of her parents.

Something In her hit me. I couldn’t just gather the words to reply or say anything at all. I was continuously looking at her as she greeted my mom and introudced herself.

Whatever you call it Love at first talk (can’t be at first sight as I had already seen her) or appreciation of the act of courage she had done, I believed that this girl has something special and I should know more of her.

She’s the one ; yes indeed she’s the one……

Exams and the Aftermath

Why do we have exams?????

It's the Mid-year exams and everybody is busy preparing for them.

I am least worried though and my life is going on as normal, talking and chit chatting while the lectures are going on.

Well if you are thinking why am i not having even a blink of concern about exams is becuase i am a night bird, the ullu as they call it, i can roam the whole day away wasting time but at night time its me and my studies.

Coming back to the class, we had a new team of monitors , a girl named Arhenika khanna - the no nonsense , completely studious , shy , introvert and serious girl (completely opposite to what i am) and another boy Duggal- 6 ft bouncer.

Now as i am the most chirpy and talkative boy in the class, it's the moral duty of our girl monitor to write my name on the blackboard because of which i had to face the grunt of the teachers many a times.

Exams came and there was a scare in some of the papers but overall they went well.

Meanwhile i was getting frustrated of seeing my name everytime on the board and had to persuade duggal to rub it off so as to save myself.

i don't know whats the problem of arhenika, "Main hee milta hun kya har time ; kisi aur ka bhee naam likh do" is what i used to shout but she never relented.

Few Days passed and now it was the time of the results.

"You Rascal, Where's the treat?" shouted Sameer.

"Why what happened" I retorted. Sameer is one of my classmates who only wants to eat all the time and is never shy of asking for parties and treats. He once asked a treat from one of the girls on she wearing a new hairband. Ahem !!!

"You have topped dude, for the first time you have beaten Sandy. This is something huge and i am coming to your place in the evening".

"Holy Cow. How did that happen? Let me confirm and then we will decide the treat" as i ran towards the notice board where the result was displayed.

Indeed i had topped with maximum marks in mathematics (My Fav) and what came as a surprise to me was me getting highest marks in chemistry.

Our Class teacher Mrs Neelima used to teach us chemistry and in a single day i had turned from a constant nagger to THE CLASS TOPPER in her eyes.

The look of disdain and indifference that she used to give me earlier while seeing my name on the board , now turned into appreciation and admiration and i was to be rewarded for it.

And What was the reward?????

"We are going to change the monitors for the class now, Arhenika will be replaced by Mrinalini and Duggal will be replaced by Arhan" Mrs Neelima said after the appreciation.

Arhan- Arhan arora thats me , you must be kidding right? Its like giving the job of inspector to the most coveted thief but it was to be and i was now incharge of handling all the chaos which inevitably 9 out of 10 times was due to me.

I was finding it tough to be honest, telling people not to talk was quite embarassing considering my past records.

"We are having a Parent Teacher Meeting on Saturday the 20th Oct, everybody has to come along with their parents and don't take me lightly , its complulsory for everyone and i mean everyone" Mrs Neelima announced which felt more like an order.

She can be very strict at times and its better not to mess with her.

"Why it is compluslory yaar? My parents come to school only when the new academic session starts and now i have to get them on saturday" I was cribbing again.

"Dude you know neelima , she will be really angry if you are not coming with your parents, and bring them yaar , they will feel good , finally you have beaten me , Ha Ha" , Sandy went into laughter after saying this.

Though Sandy and me always use to compete for positions we were the best of friends since last 6 years and for the first time Sandy had came second in any type of exam, but still he was cool as he said only you can beat me no one else.

It helps being around with true friends especially since Ravi , my mate , my brother and my best friend from 10 years had to change the school.

Its time to convince mom now for the PTM.

About my family i am the younger of the two brothers. My mom is a housewife and my dad is a textile dealer ; the major profession in ludhiana, Yes i am from ludhiana ,a Punjabi.


20 Oct
Parent Teacher Meeting

... A day i today wish that should never had come but no one can stop destiny.......Can we???

Introduction

Hi I am Arhan Arora

5ft 7" , Fair in color , 15 years old boy

These are the details that matter nothing , what matters is that i have the most uncanny luck you can ever imagine, wherever i go i am the centre of attraction for whatever reason possible

I don' t talk to girls (They are creatures from the other world)

Whatever fun i do it is among the gang of friends i have namely Ravi , Sandy etc

I am what you call the toyboy of our class, many pranks are played on me and i have a list of around 50+ nicknames (you will get to know them in time)

Not boring you much right now , i am in class +1 studying non medical and among the top 3 in class ( Quite studious)

Life was going smoothly and with fun as for a 15 year old until one day..

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